Oh boy, half the year is just about gone! Scary, isn't it? I'm finding it difficult to sit down and blog...just haven't felt the blogging urge lately, so I'll just go with it. I'm going to hit the sack a bit early tonight and read a book, so I figure I'll squeeze a post in and then I'll sign out until the next time I feel like it!
Scott's been away on a business trip for a few days, so it's been quiet here. Well, that's not true...it's been just as loud with the little toddler running around, but I guess it's been slower. I don't feel so bad about not making a big supper when I get home from work, which is nice. Tonight we had bowls of chicken soup, and it was easy and quick. Just my cup of tea. Particularly when my dad made us the homemade soup...it was so tasty! :) He brought it over on the weekend when he cut the lawn for me. Wow - I am a lucky daughter! I've been blessed with a very giving, considerate father and in-laws. They're always helping out! What a treat!
I'm tired today. Maybe it's because it's a Monday. Maybe it's because I'm a bit down and out. I sure hope we're doing a good job raising our little munchkin. I worry about that. I remember my mom telling me that when she and my dad were raising us as children they kept in mind that they would always love Marc and me....they wanted to raise me so that others would love us as well. I think they did a great job raising us. I just hope I am doing ok too. Days like today I wish my mom was still here. There's nothing like chatting over insecurities and fears and hopes and dreams with your mom, is there? For those of you who have your mothers - appreciate them!! :)
I think the catalyst of my worry is just the whole toddler stage Annika is in right now. I have to stop and remind myself that this will pass (at least, it better pass!!!) and that I'm not alone. I sure hope I'm not the only one dealing with a difficult toddler, tantrums, attitude, crying fits, etc. Sigh. I love Annika - no question. She is my joy, my heart. But some days....boy oh boy, she tries my patience!! ;) A few days ago I was shocked when I asked her to do something and she replied with "No! Leave me alone, Mommy!" Say what?! She isn't even 2 yet!!! I'm amazed she used it perfectly in context, but I was SO not impressed!! And I have no idea where she picked it up. Today her caregiver told me that she had a challenging day with Annika, who spent a good deal of time "whacking" others. Not good. I am glad she's not biting/pulling hair, but I am sad that I have a little terror! Annika was on the receiving end of bites, scratches and pinches from one of the other girls and it's not fun. I sure hope we can curb this behaviour soon. My parents always told me that I was a headstrong, stubborn, independent toddler/child/teen/young adult....oh dear....this doesn't bode well for me. But I did ask my dad when he was over if I was as strong-willed as Annika and he said he doesn't think so. Sigh.
I'll be happy to have my hubby home this weekend. It's Father's Day and so we'll celebrate him and what a wonderful daddy he is to Annika. She misses him and will be so excited to see him when we pick him up at the airport. But for purely selfish reasons I'm happy he's coming so that I maybe can have a rest one evening. Maybe he'll be able to put her to bed one night and I'll just laze or something!
Hope you're all having a great week.
Penny
